I've been feeling teribly neglectful of various duties incumbant upon me recently. So I thought I'd try to make some headway on at least one of them...
My oldest cousin (three years my senior) is married now. He and his new wife are honeymooning in Hawaii, land of our ancestors. I've been to a few weddings in the past couple of years, but this one sank in the deepest. All manner of reflections roiled and simmered in my mind all week-end. "My generation is coming up, our parents are moving into the background. " More prominant was "I knew him when he had long purple hair in highschool... and now he is married!" Less prominant, but none the less still consciously there was "I am not ready for this at all...I think."
*sigh*
In any case, it was the best and most worthwhile all nighter I have ever pulled...
06 September 2005
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good lord, all these random strangers coming up to you and commenting...isn't this a bit scary? Isn't there some kind of Blogger Security and Spam service to whom one can complain?
Now you know how I felt like when I got back from New York State this summer. Exactly what I felt like. And now Stu and Mrs. Stu are expecting their first child in April. I'm TELLING you, this is FREAKISH. I'm not OLD ENOUGH TO BE AN ADULT YET! I'm NOT OLD ENOUGH TO HAVE KIDS! WHY THE HELL ARE MY FRIENDS HAVING KIDS? THEY'RE NO OLDER THAN I AM! (breathe) okay, well. platitude: life moves on. and on, and on. We weather these momentary reality-cold-water shocks and become....hardened. And older.
By hardened I mean that at least my own responses to lifechanges in loved ones becomes more and more cynical...perhaps it is the analytical curse unique to TAC, perhaps...I don't know.
Is this the same man I knew just a year ago? He sounds somehow changed...
I was just gonna say. Maybe some things do change for the better. I'm glad for you, lastgentleman, because being dead is really, really not fun...
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